Belajar Menamakan

Beberapa waktu yang lalu ngeliat di playstore ada aplikasi buat baca buku gratis, namanya Amazon Kindle. Terus tertarik install dan download beberapa buku. Tapi sayangnya enggak semuanya gratis. Kebanyakan berbayar. Tapi untungnya yang berbayarpun bisa didownload samplenya beberapa halaman.

Salah satu buku yang aku download adalah buku nya Myles Munroe, Waiting and Dating versi sample. Namanya juga anak muda yang masih galau pasangan hidup. Download bukunya udah cukup lama, sebulan dua bulanan yang lalu lah. Tapi baru dibaca kemarin.

And i found out this part. Pembahasan tentang ayat yang selalu dilompati.

"Consider Adam, the first man, as an example. The second chapter of Genesis shows us a human being who was whole, complete, and content within himself and his companionship with God:
The Lord God formed the man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being. Now the Lord God had planted a garden in the east, in Eden; and there He put the man He had formed. And the Lord God made all kinds of trees grow out of the ground—trees that were pleasing to the eye and good for food. In the middle of the garden were the tree of life and the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.…The Lord God took the man and put him in the Garden of Eden to work it and take care of it.…The Lord God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.”Now the Lord God had formed out of the ground all the beasts of the field and all the birds of the air. He brought them to the man to see what he would name them; and whatever the man called each living creature, that was its name. So the man gave names to all the livestock, the birds of the air and all the beasts of the field. But for Adam no suitable helper was found. So the Lord God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep; and while he was sleeping, He took one of the man’s ribs and closed up the place with flesh. Then the Lord God made a woman from the rib He had taken out of the man, and He brought her to the man (Gen. 2: 7-9,15,18-22).
Before Eve came along, Adam was alone, but he was not lonely. Loneliness is a spiritual disease. Adam was alone because he was the only one of his kind, but he was completely fulfilled as a person. In tending the garden he had meaningful work to do. In his authority over the other living creatures, he was exercising his God-given dominion over the created order. He enjoyed full and open fellowship with his Creator. Adam was so fulfilled within himself and so busy tending the garden and naming and caring for the birds and animals that he never felt the need or desire for a companion, this is called singleness or being single. He was so preoccupied with doing what God had told him to do that he sensed no need for a mate. Apparently, the thought never entered his head. Providing a mate for Adam was God’s idea. Adam was completely self-fulfilled; he was ready for a mate when he did not need one. It is the same way with dating. The time you are most prepared for dating is when you don’t need anyone to complete you, fulfill you, or instill in you a sense of worth or purpose. You are ready to date when you have first learned how to be single."

Jauh sebelum ini Tuhan sudah bikin aku mengerti hal ini.
Bahwa semua ada waktunya. Ada waktu untuk menamakan binatang, ada waktu untuk tidur nyenyak, ada waktu untuk bertemu. Dan kejadian-kejadian tersebut harus berurutan. Tidak boleh dilompati. Karena tanpa belajar menamakan binatang, Adam mungkin tidak bisa memberi nama "Hawa" kepada perempuan tersebut.
Dan sekarang aku di tahap menamakan binatang.
Sekian.
(Daripada tambah mellow ga jelas)

Mezbah dan Pohon

Pada suatu hari,
Tumbuh satu tunas kecil di samping mezbah.
Wow lucunya, aku siram ya biar kamu tidak kehausan.
Hei, tanaman yang tumbuh disekitar mezbah harusnya kamu cabut.
Ah, tapi ini lucu sekali, Bapa. Lihat betapa mungilnya daun itu. Dan batangnya yang hijau dan segar.
Apa sih salahnya kalau dia tumbuh?

Lama kelamaan tunas bertumbuh menjadi pohon kecil di samping mezbah.
Sesekali batangnya tertiup angin dan menyentuh mezbah.
Hei, sampai kapan kamu biarkan pohon itu tumbuh di sini?
Ah Bapa, iya aku mengerti.
Batang yang menyentuh mezbah itu akan aku potong.
Tapi seharusnya pohon itu kau cabut..

Beberapa bulan kemudian
Tunas tersebut sudah menjadi pohon yang besar.
Kokoh dan rindang.
Dan menudungi mezbah.
Mengapa harus ditebang? Mengapa aku tidak boleh menyiraminya lagi?
Bukankah pohon ini baik, bisa mencegah pemanasan global?
(Alasan bodoh, ya aku tahu)

Pohon itu sudah seharusnya dicabut sampai ke akar-akarnya.
Jadi kapan mau pohon itu kau tebang?
Kapan mau berhenti menyirami pohon itu?

Hm.
Me too annoyed with my own self.

Song of the broken

I broke the rule
Messing my own self
Playing with the comfort zone,
Slipped and drowned then.

Integrity is the song
My heart keeps on singing
But at the intersection
I chose the wrong turn.

If only confessions and prayers can heal
Here i am,
A sinful and a liar
With a hope to be healed.

If You are close to the broken hearted
Here i am,
I bring these scatters
With a hope to be healed.

Selah

My remedy,
You are my remedy,
The Lord of the universe is my shepherd
Be still and be healed, my soul.

Malang, December 14th 2016

Selah

Sekarang masih belum waktunya tidur.
Seberapapun kerasnya kamu berusaha untuk tidur, kamu tidak akan bisa tidur nyenyak.
Karena sekarang masih waktu bekerja.

Lihat, betapa banyaknya hal yang harus kamu kerjakan.
Semuanya sudah berbaris di hadapanmu.
Sudah ada di telapak tanganmu.
Menanti untuk diselesaikan.

Kamu akan tidur. Tapi nanti.
Sekarang kerja dulu ya.

Selah
Malang, 4 Desember 2016

Coming soon

:)

Publikasi

Aku enggak percaya kesuksesan dengan modal usaha semalam. Kalau usahanya sedikit dan berhasil itu namanya keberuntungan. Tapi kesuksesan butuh usaha, dan butuh waktu untuk mempersiapkan yang terbaik.
I used to wondering why i never been good enough. Tiga tahun berurusan sama publikasi. Ditolak? Sering.
Berbulan-bulan berusaha memperbaiki grammar, berusaha memperbaiki cara penulisan, berusaha membuat benang merah manuskrip, berusaha lebih teliti lagi membaca author guidelines, sabar nunggu balesan editor, sabar ngerjain semua revisian, dll.

Bukan berarti teman-temanku tidak berusaha maksimal. Mereka sudah berusaha. Tapi lelah karena tidak juga dihargai. Dan akhirnya mereka memilih jalan yang lebih berat. Memulai dari awal. Mulai dari memilih topik baru, membuat proposal, memulai penelitian dari awal, sampai mengurus publikasi. Sedih kita pisah rek :(
Aku memilih jalan yang lebih mudah. Aku enggak bisa membayangkan kalau harus memulai dari awal lagi, apalagi dengan topik yang berbeda. Karena males belajar topik lain, dan sampai saat itu belum ada penelitian payung biomed lain di bidang kardiovaskular. Enggak kuat kalau mesti penelitian sendiri, penelitian biomedik bisa habis puluhan juta. Bayar SPP aja megap-megap (gitu kok ya tetap nekat ambil kuliah biomedik -.-")
Ya sudahlah gak apa-apa makan hati sedikit, daripada mesti minta uang di papa mama buat penelitian biomedik.

Publikasi perdana. Full of flaws, but enough to get M.Biomed :)

Regards,
Your next heart keeper
#on #my #way #to #be #your #heart #keeper

Ps: kalo penasaran googling aja pakai keyword atherosclerosis, oxLDL, Lp-PLA2, foam cell, dan Aditya Angela Adam.
Enggak penasaran? Yaudah sih gapapa juga..