Immortal

Will it be boring,

in the eternity with You?

Will we fall again,

like the first man did to You?

Or have we finished with ourselves,

And rejoice in the afterlife with You? 

TED Mystery Experiment - Part 2 First Month Spending

After I read the acceptance email and watched the video, I decided to plan how I should spend the money. Since the very first day. It was my day off anyway. Memang orangnya dasarnya suka planning aja, gatau deh nantinya bakal jalan apa enggak, asalkan sudah terprediksi mau digimanain. Alias ga bisa fokus ke yang lain, jadi mending diketik aja dulu. As long as the plan has been made, my heart is at peace. Even though at that time I wasn't really sure about this good news. It was fun to plan anyway. And it was such a pretty spreadsheet in my personal finance file~

The last requirement got me brokenhearted :"
But hey, look at how easy it was.

When the money finally arrived, in the first week, I bought my dream laptop, Zenbook! I have always wanted this laptop forever. My old laptops were cheap (yea I'm cheap, can't afford good things :"). And this pandemic thing made me realize how vital high-quality gadgets are. I actually want to buy this at the local store, but after searching almost everywhere (gajugasih lebay, cuma ke 2 toko terbesar), no one sells it here. So I bought it online. And the best thing is, it comes in lilac :D

After the laptop came, finally I told Ariel bout this good news. Iyaa, I used to keep the good news for myself and try to be lowkey. I also told him not to tell anyone yet because I like to decide on my own, at least for now. 

Next is the tithe and some donation. Idk it comes naturally, maybe because I'm getting used to it. 

Then the tax. I'm a good citizen dan civil servant. I paid my tax. Paying tax is adult lyfe wkwkw. 

I also bought the essential, my skincare for the next few months. 

Then comes the dilemma. I love the idea of an integrated second brain that I can access with any of my gadgets. I tried notability, but it only available on iOS. They said goodnotes is better, but I can't afford any other purchase. So I tried free OneNote. Of course, it has many pros and cons, but it fits me with my android phone, iPad, and zenbook. Bolehlahh.

Okay, then should I buy a brand new Samsung galaxy tab s6 lite? Or should I buy a pen tablet and notetaking with my zenbook? Or should I sell my -used to papa's but now it's mine- iPad pro 12.9" 2017, then buy iPad mini? But the rumor said that the iPad mini 6 is still underdevelopment. It means i have to wait for maybe a year. On these purchases, I found myself spending wasting so much time researching what I should buy. Is it better to buy it from Shopee or Tokopedia? Should I buy this or that? Is it better and cheaper to buy from this or that seller? Finally, after a profound moment of thinking, I chose to maximize what I already have now. So the subsequent purchases I made were iPad accessories. Goes to #tya-digital-notetaking-2021. But anyway, now I know how it feels to check out my shopping carts without worrying about the price.

I also play it smart, kids. Because I can't save this money, I used this money for my daily expenses to keep most of my salary.

Sooo, it was how I spend the money in the first month. One down, two more to go.

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sebenarnya ada part 3 dan 4.. tapi mood menulis lagi hilang berbulan-bulan ini... wkwkwk

Too cringe i cant

Aku berusaha untuk sopan dan menjaga kata-kataku supaya tidak menyinggung siapapun. 

Jujur aku gapaham dengan jalan pikiran orang yang terlalu perasa. Dont get me wrong, punya perasaan itu baik. Tapi kalau sudah 'terlalu', jadinya tidak baik. Memang BAPA tuh luar biasa ya, bikin manusia beragam sekali modelnya. Tolong BAPA tya si manusia logika ini tidak paham kenapa ada manusia kek begini. It's like mannn i cant help this is too cringe to handle. 

((BAPA cinta semua anak, semua anak manusia di dunia, yang baperan, yang tapres, yang nangisan, dan suka marah, BAPA cinta semua anak di dunia))

Ya walaupun aku ga kenal-kenal banget, tapi bisa ketebak sih gimana ujungnya. I'm good at predicting something. Jadi ya lebih baik gausah mulai. Aku tidak melihat adanya masa depan disana. Bukan berarti dia tidak baik. Bukan. Tapi tidak cocok aja. Bagaimana bisa tya si manusia logika ini bisa hidup bersama manusia yang terlalu perasa? Sungguh tidak masuk di logikaku. 

And sorry, you are blocked :) 

If you read this, please learn how to self-control.

Trust issue

I tell you because i trust you. Mungkin salahku juga sih ga bilang kalo minta tolong gausah cerita ke sapa-sapa, jadi ya dikira cerita biasa aja. 

Memang dasarnya tya sudah punya trust issue. Ya cukup tau aja sih. Jadi pelajaran kedepan buat ga bakal percaya buat cerita kek gitu lagi.

:)

Ode to the bad days

I know they do it because of dr. Hery Sp.JP,
but hey, I wrote that paper, I'm the et al :")
oh gini rasanya dapat pengakuan nasional.

Just like a 1000000-pieces puzzle
There were dark, ambiguous pieces
With bizarre pattern
The ones we wish to perish

It seems unimportant
but a puzzle won't be complete without it

Ode to the bad days
The days when everything were scattered and thrown away
The dreams, hard works, hope, and expectation
Gone with the wind

Remember, just like the past,

these bad days too wont last forever.

TED Mystery Experiment - part 1

 #MysteryExperiment 

Disclaimer: Papa kalau baca ini, tolong jangan ember dulu. Tell them when this is officially over, okay. Thx. 

God know one of my biggest insecurity is finance. I am afraid that someday I don't have enough. As a medical doctor and civil servant working in a public hospital, I know I shouldn't be worry. I've got everything I need now. But residency years to come made me think about my savings all over again. Is it enough? Belum lagi stresnya nanti pas PPDS, jadi pasti butuh hidup dengan nyaman.

The Residency system in Indonesia is university-based. Residents won't get paid; instead, we pay our tuition. Can I survive only with my salary? Can I live with my saving now? Apa harus tya gadai SK PNS buat modal sekolah? Thanks to many financial gurus on the internet nowadays, I learned a lot. How to budgeting, an emergency fund, compound interest, stocks market, and other fun things. 

Budgeting was not easy at all! On January 31th 2021, I decided to sit down and do my budget. It suddenly gave me a headache because it revealed all my 'bocor halus'. It made me upset with my younger-careless self. Why you wasting so much money mannnnnnnn hhdhagahbfdhgfgggwghhh! You should've spent it wisely!! 

Dasar young dumb and broke.

Bzzzzzzzztt *ceritanya ala-ala rewind*

- Back in December 2020, I read about this research on Twitter. It is a multinational study, and they wanted participants from Indonesia too. Because I am into research things, it was fun to join. It is the TED Foundation. I mean the famous TED Talks on Youtube. It felt good to help the other researchers too. It was a 20-ish minutes survey. I submitted my application and forgot about it then.- 

The thread I was referring to
Gimana ga bergelitik jiwa peneliti tya
kalo ajakannya kek begini.
It's gonna be fun and exciting.

*okay back to the future*

A week later (in early February), I received an email from TED talks. It was stated that I had been chosen to be the participant in their research of human nature. Cool, I thought. Maybe another SurveyMonkey to fill in. 

After I opened the link and watched the video. Wait wait, what??? We were told to spend ten thousand USD in three months? Is it a prank? Is it a scam? Is it legit? But it is Chris Anderson himself, founder of TED Foundation, and I got nothing to lose. The terms and conditions were easy to follow. The paper works too was easy. Even setting up a new verified PayPal account was not as complicated as I thought. Thanks to BNI Mobile Banking. 

After waiting for several weeks and doubting it several times, on February 27th, I opened my email. Then my PayPal account. 

It's LEGIT mannnnnnn! TED Mystery Experiment bukan kaleng-kaleng. Eh kalem dulu tapi soalnya masih jaga UGD. Okay tenang tenang, stick to the plan yaa..

Click on the Label "TED Mystery Experiement" for the next parts!