the agony

it's been a long twelve years

after those tearful nights 

and a promise to choose the right things.

It's been a long eleven years,

after the longest ride home

and a lesson to be patient.

it's been a long time of stumbling

in the cycles of purification,

with a restless heart and mind.

It's been a long time of wondering

when will the time come?

But maybe it's always about the journey?

Why, my soul, are you downcast?

Why so disturbed within me?

Put your hope in YAH,

for I will yet praise HIM,

my Savior and my YAH.

- Psalm 42:5

Be still my heart

be still my soul

and find the true peace 

in The GREAT I AM

Jakarta, February 20th, 2022

Jadi tya, sampai kapan nih kamu berharap BAPA menyelesaikan masalah yang kamu bikin sendiri kalo bole tau? Sampai kapan nih take everything for granted? 

😊

i'm on my way to be your next heart keeper!

emang bener mesti foto di rektorat pake jakun dulu baru kerasa kalo ini bukan mimpi

too soon to spill

 but I can't handle the euphoria

In the end, we choose our own battle.

We choose which one is worth our fight. 

New phase

Did you remember those days back then 

when you wondering about today?

Looking through the pictures with doubt.

But you kept on striving, though.

But hey, take a deep breath and look around.

You are living your dream now.

Sitting in the best seat,

in the best room. 

It will never be easy.

But it indeed is worth fighting for

Welcome to the new battlefield.

Under the shadow of the Almighty,

you will survive

and you will thrive.

Jakarta, January 23rd, 2022

Tya - the girl who pinches her arm every other day.